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My car needs to be smogged. I took it to the shop to have the test. They can't test it, because it has a *fuel leak* Yep, they aren't allowed to pass a car that has a fuel leak, and the fuel leak is on top of the engine, the "fuel rail" (yes, the guy showed me the leak - scary!) The parts and labor to fix it are an estimated $610 (parts alone are $400 - if the injectors are OK), plus the costs for the smog check and reg (another $100).
If I spend the money on this, I have one month less rent.
I am so fucked over, I can't take much more. I have an annual bill due in January for $175, I have collection agencies hounding me for over $20,000, several of my small credit accounts are overdue now too, I had to borrow money for my phone bill. I need to see a doctor, to have a pap smear and get new prescriptions, and a dentist, and I can't afford that either. My grandmother is sick, my mother is not much better off, my roomie is in the hospital possibly dying, I lost a good friend in October. I've been out of work for nearly 19 months, I have no income.
I want to scream and cry. What have I ever done to deserve having my life fucked up this way??
I have three people who are out on the street if I can't keep my end of the household up - one is in the hospital, one is on disability, and one is 51 years old and partially disabled. I have no "safety net" - I am the one who always ends up being safety net for others.
Gods, no more, okay? I don't know what the fuck you're trying to "teach" me, but I guarantee I won't get it if I get pushed around much more. I won't learn jack shit if I end up fucking insane from the stress. I'm not gonna stop caring for people just because I get fucked over economically for doing so. I've had it with asking you guys to stop it - now I'm telling you - ENOUGH!!!
If I spend the money on this, I have one month less rent.
I am so fucked over, I can't take much more. I have an annual bill due in January for $175, I have collection agencies hounding me for over $20,000, several of my small credit accounts are overdue now too, I had to borrow money for my phone bill. I need to see a doctor, to have a pap smear and get new prescriptions, and a dentist, and I can't afford that either. My grandmother is sick, my mother is not much better off, my roomie is in the hospital possibly dying, I lost a good friend in October. I've been out of work for nearly 19 months, I have no income.
I want to scream and cry. What have I ever done to deserve having my life fucked up this way??
I have three people who are out on the street if I can't keep my end of the household up - one is in the hospital, one is on disability, and one is 51 years old and partially disabled. I have no "safety net" - I am the one who always ends up being safety net for others.
Gods, no more, okay? I don't know what the fuck you're trying to "teach" me, but I guarantee I won't get it if I get pushed around much more. I won't learn jack shit if I end up fucking insane from the stress. I'm not gonna stop caring for people just because I get fucked over economically for doing so. I've had it with asking you guys to stop it - now I'm telling you - ENOUGH!!!
