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My car needs to be smogged. I took it to the shop to have the test. They can't test it, because it has a *fuel leak* Yep, they aren't allowed to pass a car that has a fuel leak, and the fuel leak is on top of the engine, the "fuel rail" (yes, the guy showed me the leak - scary!) The parts and labor to fix it are an estimated $610 (parts alone are $400 - if the injectors are OK), plus the costs for the smog check and reg (another $100).
If I spend the money on this, I have one month less rent.
I am so fucked over, I can't take much more. I have an annual bill due in January for $175, I have collection agencies hounding me for over $20,000, several of my small credit accounts are overdue now too, I had to borrow money for my phone bill. I need to see a doctor, to have a pap smear and get new prescriptions, and a dentist, and I can't afford that either. My grandmother is sick, my mother is not much better off, my roomie is in the hospital possibly dying, I lost a good friend in October. I've been out of work for nearly 19 months, I have no income.
I want to scream and cry. What have I ever done to deserve having my life fucked up this way??
I have three people who are out on the street if I can't keep my end of the household up - one is in the hospital, one is on disability, and one is 51 years old and partially disabled. I have no "safety net" - I am the one who always ends up being safety net for others.
Gods, no more, okay? I don't know what the fuck you're trying to "teach" me, but I guarantee I won't get it if I get pushed around much more. I won't learn jack shit if I end up fucking insane from the stress. I'm not gonna stop caring for people just because I get fucked over economically for doing so. I've had it with asking you guys to stop it - now I'm telling you - ENOUGH!!!
If I spend the money on this, I have one month less rent.
I am so fucked over, I can't take much more. I have an annual bill due in January for $175, I have collection agencies hounding me for over $20,000, several of my small credit accounts are overdue now too, I had to borrow money for my phone bill. I need to see a doctor, to have a pap smear and get new prescriptions, and a dentist, and I can't afford that either. My grandmother is sick, my mother is not much better off, my roomie is in the hospital possibly dying, I lost a good friend in October. I've been out of work for nearly 19 months, I have no income.
I want to scream and cry. What have I ever done to deserve having my life fucked up this way??
I have three people who are out on the street if I can't keep my end of the household up - one is in the hospital, one is on disability, and one is 51 years old and partially disabled. I have no "safety net" - I am the one who always ends up being safety net for others.
Gods, no more, okay? I don't know what the fuck you're trying to "teach" me, but I guarantee I won't get it if I get pushed around much more. I won't learn jack shit if I end up fucking insane from the stress. I'm not gonna stop caring for people just because I get fucked over economically for doing so. I've had it with asking you guys to stop it - now I'm telling you - ENOUGH!!!
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Nothing. Nothing at all. That's the hardest part to remember, sometimes. It's not about fair, it's about is. And yes, I know you know that, but it's still worth saying.
I wish we were in a position to help. If I weren't getting laid-off, we might be able to. but our reserves are already gone, with having put everything we could toward lessening our own debt-load, and we'll barely be able to afford to keep our place once I'm on unemployment in ~32 days.
No, I'm not trying to one-up your dead. You're in the worse situation, hands down. Please do understand: If we were in a position to be able to help, we would be, and I wouldn't be talking about it here instead.
FWIW, we're pulling for you. Cold comfort, if any at all, I know. But we are, nonetheless.
Sorry it's being such a bitch. Please take care the best you can under the circumstances, yes?
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Some days it feels...
Fact is, if I don't have work by march, or some other form of income, we are fucked. The worst thing is having other friends in similar situations, and not being able to help out.
It used to be that I'd bitch, moan, and complain about car repairs - then I'd get the part(s) and do the work. Now I can't even afford the parts, and I have to depend on others to do the work. I truly *hate* having to depend on anyone else to fix things for me.
Why the fuck am I a witch/mage if I can't even put my own life in order?
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Been there... actually still there...
okay...
I like totally understand.
I have brain injury. it happened 23 months ago.
Since then I've lost 9 jobs (I have seizures as well)
had to give up driving.
Moved 13 times.
Lived in a homeless shelter.
been poor. very poor- the type where you go several days without food.
ended up with $160,000 in medical debt
I've lost several friends- including a brain injured friend, and a cousin who died 2 days ago from an aneurysm...
I've currently have had no income since October. Huge bills. no rent $$$$. no food $$$. etc etc etc.
Brain injury really screws up a life... WHY do we deserve this?????