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I feel like shit. Nothing physically wrong, but my universe seems - abysmal. I don't want to deal with people, I don't want to do anything but sleep the day away. I can't face my bills, or even make myself go to the bank to deposit my meager unemployment check.

I am depressed - in spite of my medication. I shudder to think what I would be like without it.

I have tried to get my self image away from being dependant on my occupation, and income, but it doesn't work. My head aches, my heart aches, and I am in no shape to be interviewed - even if one of my millions of resumes gets me a phone call. All of my friends are either scattered to the four winds, unemployed also, or otherwise blythely going on with their lives.

Then I realized that someone has been using my regular email address to opt in to really stupid lists and newletters. It's bad enough that my rasteris address gets all kinds of sick porn and viagra spam. It's a good thing I don't own a gun - I want to kill me a spammer, or something.