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Well, I'm scraping bottom, again, still. I realized last night that I am just another geek generalist, in a market saturated with a lot of geek generalists with lots more experience and fewer disabilities than I have. The odds of me gettinga job are slim, and none.
Yes, I'm a good troubleshooter and brainstormer - so is half the world, and all of the world that doesn't ask about fries with your order. I quite frankly have NOTHING exemplary or remarkable about my skills, knowledge, or ability. I'm a mediocre script hack, abysmal at OOP, a half baked junior sysadmin, and ex-secretary, ex-chemist, and all around jill of trades - and master of NONE.
I can't get a job as a cashier - no experience, and I just don't have a "customer service" attitude - I hate dealing with crowds, your average line of harried people, idiots, and losers. I get mean if I'm out shopping too long.
I can handle incoming phones - as long as the people don't expect me to somehow solve all of their problems, and don't try to bully me. I like to help people, but I don't deal with the willfully clueless, arrogant, and stupid very well.
The only thing I do consistently well is data cruching, figuring out how weird software works, and spewing my opinions to anyone who will listen. Sort of a half-baked geek version of Rush Limbaugh and Martha Staewart combined - but without the following or exposure.
So I will have to see about applying for disability, and see if they will let me be another useless pox on humanity: a failed geek who can't deal with the world and business as it is today. I just don't kiss ass and take abuse as well as I did when I was younger, and not disabled (which wasn't well at all - I lose track of how many jobs I've lost because I "got above myself", had a "bad attitude", or was "insubordinate". I make a lousy flunky - but people get pissed when I say that.
I want a different sandbox, mommy - one that isn't full of bugs, shit, and idiots.
Yes, I'm a good troubleshooter and brainstormer - so is half the world, and all of the world that doesn't ask about fries with your order. I quite frankly have NOTHING exemplary or remarkable about my skills, knowledge, or ability. I'm a mediocre script hack, abysmal at OOP, a half baked junior sysadmin, and ex-secretary, ex-chemist, and all around jill of trades - and master of NONE.
I can't get a job as a cashier - no experience, and I just don't have a "customer service" attitude - I hate dealing with crowds, your average line of harried people, idiots, and losers. I get mean if I'm out shopping too long.
I can handle incoming phones - as long as the people don't expect me to somehow solve all of their problems, and don't try to bully me. I like to help people, but I don't deal with the willfully clueless, arrogant, and stupid very well.
The only thing I do consistently well is data cruching, figuring out how weird software works, and spewing my opinions to anyone who will listen. Sort of a half-baked geek version of Rush Limbaugh and Martha Staewart combined - but without the following or exposure.
So I will have to see about applying for disability, and see if they will let me be another useless pox on humanity: a failed geek who can't deal with the world and business as it is today. I just don't kiss ass and take abuse as well as I did when I was younger, and not disabled (which wasn't well at all - I lose track of how many jobs I've lost because I "got above myself", had a "bad attitude", or was "insubordinate". I make a lousy flunky - but people get pissed when I say that.
I want a different sandbox, mommy - one that isn't full of bugs, shit, and idiots.
