*Boingy*

I got my retroactive unemployment benefits check today! It means I can pay my share of the rent for the next two months!!

The creditors don't get any of it. I'm still out of work, and rent comes first. But November and December should be covered (if my roomies keep up their end...)

I still need a job.

Update # 8

The latest...

I've been to see N yesterday evening and again this morning. There seems to be no change. They were weaning her off of the Ventilator but about two this afternoon her respiration went up and they put her back in resting mode and will try again later.

I don't know if this is a setback or normal. I feel as if the ventilator is her current enemy and she needs to get away from that. When I see her in the hospital, sometimes she opens her eyes but I don't sense any recognition or even Her presence. It's almost a look of resignation.

Maybe I'm missing something.

Blessed be, G

Yes, G, you are. You forget about her story of the misplaced healing done for Randall Garrett, and the consequences. Most of her pagan friends "don't want to lose N". Many don't realize that her quality of life isn't, and the old N that I know and love would not want to "live" like this.

I have deliberately not done any healing work for her, except to work for whatever outcome is in *her* best interests, and defined by *her* wishes.

Damnit, G, let her die. That's what she's wanted for months now. You just won't hear it.