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Yet Another Problem
My car needs to be smogged. I took it to the shop to have the test. They can't test it, because it has a *fuel leak* Yep, they aren't allowed to pass a car that has a fuel leak, and the fuel leak is on top of the engine, the "fuel rail" (yes, the guy showed me the leak - scary!) The parts and labor to fix it are an estimated $610 (parts alone are $400 - if the injectors are OK), plus the costs for the smog check and reg (another $100).
If I spend the money on this, I have one month less rent.
I am so fucked over, I can't take much more. I have an annual bill due in January for $175, I have collection agencies hounding me for over $20,000, several of my small credit accounts are overdue now too, I had to borrow money for my phone bill. I need to see a doctor, to have a pap smear and get new prescriptions, and a dentist, and I can't afford that either. My grandmother is sick, my mother is not much better off, my roomie is in the hospital possibly dying, I lost a good friend in October. I've been out of work for nearly 19 months, I have no income.
I want to scream and cry. What have I ever done to deserve having my life fucked up this way??
I have three people who are out on the street if I can't keep my end of the household up - one is in the hospital, one is on disability, and one is 51 years old and partially disabled. I have no "safety net" - I am the one who always ends up being safety net for others.
Gods, no more, okay? I don't know what the fuck you're trying to "teach" me, but I guarantee I won't get it if I get pushed around much more. I won't learn jack shit if I end up fucking insane from the stress. I'm not gonna stop caring for people just because I get fucked over economically for doing so. I've had it with asking you guys to stop it - now I'm telling you - ENOUGH!!!
If I spend the money on this, I have one month less rent.
I am so fucked over, I can't take much more. I have an annual bill due in January for $175, I have collection agencies hounding me for over $20,000, several of my small credit accounts are overdue now too, I had to borrow money for my phone bill. I need to see a doctor, to have a pap smear and get new prescriptions, and a dentist, and I can't afford that either. My grandmother is sick, my mother is not much better off, my roomie is in the hospital possibly dying, I lost a good friend in October. I've been out of work for nearly 19 months, I have no income.
I want to scream and cry. What have I ever done to deserve having my life fucked up this way??
I have three people who are out on the street if I can't keep my end of the household up - one is in the hospital, one is on disability, and one is 51 years old and partially disabled. I have no "safety net" - I am the one who always ends up being safety net for others.
Gods, no more, okay? I don't know what the fuck you're trying to "teach" me, but I guarantee I won't get it if I get pushed around much more. I won't learn jack shit if I end up fucking insane from the stress. I'm not gonna stop caring for people just because I get fucked over economically for doing so. I've had it with asking you guys to stop it - now I'm telling you - ENOUGH!!!
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Nothing. Nothing at all. That's the hardest part to remember, sometimes. It's not about fair, it's about is. And yes, I know you know that, but it's still worth saying.
I wish we were in a position to help. If I weren't getting laid-off, we might be able to. but our reserves are already gone, with having put everything we could toward lessening our own debt-load, and we'll barely be able to afford to keep our place once I'm on unemployment in ~32 days.
No, I'm not trying to one-up your dead. You're in the worse situation, hands down. Please do understand: If we were in a position to be able to help, we would be, and I wouldn't be talking about it here instead.
FWIW, we're pulling for you. Cold comfort, if any at all, I know. But we are, nonetheless.
Sorry it's being such a bitch. Please take care the best you can under the circumstances, yes?
Some days it feels...
Been there... actually still there...
okay...
I like totally understand.
I have brain injury. it happened 23 months ago.
Since then I've lost 9 jobs (I have seizures as well)
had to give up driving.
Moved 13 times.
Lived in a homeless shelter.
been poor. very poor- the type where you go several days without food.
ended up with $160,000 in medical debt
I've lost several friends- including a brain injured friend, and a cousin who died 2 days ago from an aneurysm...
I've currently have had no income since October. Huge bills. no rent $$$$. no food $$$. etc etc etc.
Brain injury really screws up a life... WHY do we deserve this?????